Stay~

It's been a while 

since I heard the song

Stay~

by Rihanna

ft Mikky Ekko

the song is set on a kinda melancholy scene

and the message is crystal clear

when two person are in a relationship

regardless of any labels

the chemistry and the trust must co-exist

both parties really need to "invest"

their time, money, and undivided attention

towards each other

Not really sure how to feel about it.

Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
it takes me all the way.
I want you to stay

I guess that no matter how tough or how ego a person is

when it comes to love

he/she will somehow act differently

cause this is about soul mate

according to a legend

they said that God have split the souls into half

and left scattered on the Earth

thus to reunite the soul

every single "half-soul" need to find their own complement

that's why everyone is busy looking for their partner

to reunite as soul mate

and personally

I always believe the legend

maybe it sounded ridiculous 

but the message and significance

 are the imperative part

Oh the reason I hold on
Oh cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one 

but I'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never see the light 

it's hard to know which one of us is caving

as the heart wants what a heart wants

everything matters

and with the right amount of freedom granted

love will definitely blossom

and this will lead until the end of the milestones

TBA State

I told someone before

not to give up his life easily

and never take the wrong path

cause you are not hurting yourself

but others

those who care and love you

so you need to brace yourself

cause one door shut 

doesn't mean same goes to other doors

there are many doors out there

you can just walk through to any doors

and above all

follow your heart

and now turning tables

he gave me the same advice

just a different situation

maybe of my path chosen

 the choice i made might cause devastating disappointments

among my loved ones

I'm aghast

cause I didn't know how to carry on the conversation

and I just took a moment to reminisce and review 

"Am I doing the wrong choices?"

Before he said these

my world was colorful 

and suddenly all the colors had been sucked into the merciless black-hole

and my world was in the state of TBA

it's crucial

how can someone just rang my alarm so soundly

that I need to take time to realize

and digest his words

yet in the end

I still believe in myself

maybe he's right

or maybe I can prove him wrong

Freedom is the right to live as we wish

It's your unlimited power to care and to love

that can make the biggest difference

in the quality of your life

I am responsible.

Although I may not be able to prevent the worst from happening,

I am responsible for my attitude

towards the inevitable misfortunes that darkens life.

Bad things do happen;

how I respond to them defines my character 

and the quality of my life.

I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness,

immobilized by the gravity of my loss,

or I can choose to rise from the pain

and treasure the most precious gift I have

- life itself.

Dream On

You know it's kinda hard to write a blog post

especially when there are nothing much happened

well in my case

this is the fact

sometimes I just run out of ideas

or perhaps nothing much to express

How about reviewing our new year resolutions?

That's way to lame cause it's February now~

How about planing what to do during the next sem break?

That's way to long to plan about~

See..

That's my point!!!

You just don't know what will happen

so you can't really expect everything goes according to your plan

and thanks to current uni lifestyle

my vocabulary is "shrinking" in a way

that sometimes I felt that English is lacking the requisite words

to express my thoughts, hatreds, joys and etc..

looking at the date 

I'm just 15 days away to end my holiday

and start to worry about the events and academic

yet

I just can't get enough 

I was planning to play and enjoy to the max for this brief holidays

but most of the time

I was spending right in front of the TV, or laptop

or becoming a driver

or cleaning the house (to make it cleaner @.@)

anyway

I understand everybody is busy with their own things

of course I have something to do as well

I heard lots of people commented about their future this few days

perhaps the competitive environment itself makes people wonder

and become paranoid about their directions

 and as for me

I'm worry

in fact I'm scared as hell

cause what if your dream turned into nothing

or something just happened suddenly

and sparing you from pursuing your ambition

it's kinda unpredictable

yet it is something worth to venture about

most of the holidays I spent on reviewing my dreams and goals 

and most of the time 

I'm depressed and worried

and just because everyone heading to different paths

that makes everything worse

cause in the end 

you have to venture alone

you may make a new bunch of friends

and meeting your significant one

still you need to walk alone

so most of the time

I just smile away

and just hang on

even the lights seems weaker

so dream on ~~

Back to Holiday Mood (Finally)

I guess the title spoke the truth

I mean it is the truth

when people started their semester break long time ago

mine just started 2 days ago

though it makes my holiday ends faster

I can't do anything

but to enjoy and have fun to the max

well

the first day I reached Klang

I get myself a makeover

something that I always wanted to do...

below are the pics ^^

fiercee~~ meow XD

profile - edgy and cool (lol)

 

the first day outing

at Espress Cafe

6 ppl

talked a lot

everyone just changed

though is just a gradual change

yet everyone started to exude "maturity" aura

maybe because the different environment

everybody started to express their thoughts (at Espress cafe)

but we all know this day will come

which everyone starting to indulge and venture into their own pathways

maybe by that time

we might just lose ourselves

and built up another shape 

and fight for own world

be optimistic is always the best option

so what we can do is 

hold on to this moment

as long as we could

I agree that our Form 6 friends

are the best gang of friends ever

cause we all have been through many things

the tidal waves can't even wash us away

the only matter is the surrounding factors

and by reviewing the future years

(before graduation)

we actually have no time left

so just live our life

Asia's Next Top Model Cycle 1

Finally

the first post in 2013

the 8th day of 2013

nothing significant

just aghast by the flying time

so this period is also the doomsday exam period

luckily there are at least a day gap in between the papers

so kinda relax and laid back final for me

yet

right after the final

is the very first wave of busyness indulgence period

it's Pesta Ang Pau

a UPM event

and as part of the committee

I'm in-charged of  General Affair Department

so it's all about the logistics and the decoration etc..

looking at the bright other side

I'm still 2 papers away to claim my very first freedom of 2013

but my heart wasn't 100% affirmative for that claim

it was entangled by the paranoid affairs

and the uncertainties

Geez...

what's wrong with the taking a break

and what's with the madess

I guess I have to fight my alter ego myself

he always wanted me to set him free

but the other part of me wanted to absorb more

that's initiate the struggling and conflicts in me

and have you done with your new year resolution thingy

(Did someone even care about it?!)

well

maybe

perhaps

so how about dream

I mean we know everyone always say chase after your dream

but some don't even have the direction

to make a first step to start with

so in the end

they just ready to be carried by the wind

go wherever the wind goes

but I believe deep inside the heart

we have a dream

even it seems blurry

but sometimes we just need to climb higher to see the better view

so anyway

just keep your fingers cross

and don't lose hope 

not in this manner XD

it's one of my fav song in this season

but I just don't want to this sing line out

unless it's a bad dream

if not

we just carry on

let's put a full stop at the philosophy

we talked about something else

Asia's Next Top Model

although I just watched the 5th episode

but thanks to the spoilers and the early airing time

we already know who are the top 6~

the contestants are ~~

 the only Malaysia's representative

lovely, bubbly, and optimistic

Melissa ^^

though she didn't make very far in this competition

but her good attitude

and enthusiasm + persistence

brings her further beyond the expectation

not sure why haters hate her

maybe they are jealous of our sweetheart

well 

who cares about them

so just wish her all the best ^^

and I hope she will inspire us in a different way

she proves that with the humble and right attitude

you can just venture further more than what you expected

people will say bad things about you

or just merely hate you

but that's their problems

you can't asked them to shut their fuck up

or to apologize

just be yourself

and let the God takes care of them

one day 

maybe they are the one who will beg you

and that time

you can just walk away

and show  o0o to them ~~

either way

I will not waste my time to fight back

or to talk back 

even the misunderstanding

is like the broken pieces of mirror

you can fix it

yet you will see the motherf***er cracks

and when you look into it

you can't be yourself anymore

so why waste time on that

pursue your dream

that's more vital

because it's your life

not someone else's... 

Errr..

I guess it's too much for the very first post in 2013

all's well, end's well

just hope myself to be tougher 

and able to withstand the harsh actions 

done by uncivilized 

and super low humanity group of people

living in stone age village

population : them only ~~

(by Diva-D)