Last Day of 2011

FINALLY

Till The World Ends

can't believe I made it through another year

If I have to summarize it in 3 words, 

I would say

UNEXPECTED

UNWANTED 

&

UNLIMITED

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UNEXPECTED

after so many dramas going on

including

DAMN it... why ANGELEA PRESTON is disqualified..

no reason for her to be in that position

she should have won ANTM Cycle 17... 

Then another drama rising...

GLEE

they kissed ><"...

Puck and Shelby ~~~

so what will happen to others??

totally unexpected..

but that is drama..

in REALITY

so many things happen

early on this year

I'm working like mad

MAY of this year

I'm in UTAR studying

FINANCE

Now.. I'm in UPM 

studying MATHEMATICS

 very damn unexpected

not just me but people around

the choice I  made

hopefully leads to a good way

a Paradise

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UNWANTED

Well...

there's a reason why this word came...

coming to new environment

of course

with some expectations

but most of them doesn't make it close to 

What I ever wanted

so that's a feeling called unwanted

is not that people don't treat you well(or maybe)

but

deep down inside heart

we still want go back to the old time

to our comfort zone

which

I wish I never had leave it 

forever~~~

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UNLIMITED

unlimited here

is nothing to do with 

Hotlink

McDonald

or etc (///)

it's about unlimited stress that coming on their way to me

I never complain about the works I got

I just wish that I could choose what I really want to do

instead of asking me to do something that I don't like

I do enjoy every performance opportunity

even embrace it

put in my heart and soul

BUT 

it is heard no more

now I have to let go something that I like the most

it hurts as I'm abandoned my dream

my Teenage Dream

Katy Perry - Teenage Dream

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I chose these 3 words not just that they started with UN and ends with TED

(actually one of the reason as well)

But amazingly, if I was in between UN and TED

it becomes UNiTED

but

everything seems fall apart

What Doesn't Kill You 

makes you stronger

and lastly hoping that

We Found Love

in this hopeless place ^^

P/S : sorry that I was BORN THIS WAY

I don't  know WHO YOU ARE exactly

well sometimes I don't even care

I wish that I'm could be LOUDER

and of course 

wish that I won't meet SOMEONE LIKE YOU again

or perhaps change your bad attitude

so that I won't be your THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY ^^

and finally 

HAPPY NEW YEAR ^^

UPM Life ~ Week 14

"What doesn't kill you

makes you stronger"

a song by Kelly Clarkson

that's the tagline I learnt this week

all the lectures, tutorials had ended

It's time to face the sound of the battle drums..

the music of exams...

the nightmares begin~~

Standing at this point

I feel that a burden has been released..

great to know that

still

I feel the burdens on the other shoulder

shifted to the empty shoulder

><"

It's study week

then later is exam week

we suppose focus in exam

NO MORE ACTIVITIES ...

why don't just leave alone

JUST ME, MYSELF AND I

let me embrace my 1st semester

which I hope ended with happiness...

I really have to let go some of the activities...

I wished I could...

I wish...

UPM Life ~ Week 13

Unexpected week in UPM

unexpected results...

The elimination of Rachel Crow

from The X Factor (US)

what a sad thing to happen 

she's DAMNed talented

she's been wowed the audience with 

Mercy

If I Were A Boy

Nothin on You

being 14 years old,

she just one step closer to final 4... 

><

just wish her all the best...

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On the other X factor

congrats to LittleMix

the 1st girl group to win the title

just wish them have a great career

can't wait to hear from them soon

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ANTM also set their grand finale this week

another UNEXPECTED results as well

Angelea Preston was eliminated

for no reason

><

WTFish?????!!!!

Angelea - I'm Here~~

We'll really miss you here...

want to wish her good luck for your future undertakings

prove the judges wrong that they didn't pick you !!!!

Go, Angelea ~~

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Well, finally down to my personal world

another unexpected scenarios happened

GRADUATION..

for the ORIENTATION

^^

finally it has come to an end

~~~~~

BAKSIS

many things to be settled..

><

Life is like a traffic light

you should know when to stop

when to continue

though the red light is on

Is up to us whether we want to stop or carry on

and once you choose to carry on

you can't turn back

cause it's too late ~~~

UPM Life ~ Week 12

Finally

it's WEEK 12

once again

stress level is getting higher

.

.

.

Pesta Gong Xi 2012

Selection

...

I got the project manager post ( not again )

speechless

thought with the PAP

MAKT next sem

is enough to keep me busy

plus the heavier subjects 

on their way coming to next sem in UPM

I'm struggling finding time

Could I manage my time then??

It's another question mark in my life

(=.=)

it's also funny that I'm not alone here..

but yet I'm not seeing a true friend

that I could share all my secrets

express all my feeling

thus 

blogging is the only way

(miss the old time.... again)

what a week .. again

Domino~

A song entitiled 

DOMINO

by Jessie J

suprise??

It's not this Domino...

yummy

it's this domino...

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Just want to be free

just want to have fun

just want to embrace

just want to be happy

stressed out

that's what i feel right now

don't know where to turn to

just have to finish the things I've started

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke in the air...

everything seems out of control

I'm letting these stress to ruin me

take me down

like a domino (?!)

but I'm so glad that 

I'm still alive

^^

wish myself all the best...

UPM Life ~ Week 11

Week 11 in UPM

marked the week before register for next semester

many things went on

went through some emotional rides

but overall still alive

awaken from the dreams

move on my life

Firstly is the light...

the light which indicates we are free

from the control

or I called "The Evil Claws"

Maybe the prayers worked

defeated them

and the light 

still shines on me ^^

(muahahahaha)

Then about the stress... 

it's the final month of 2011

can't wait to end all these suffers and pains

just barely able to breathe

sometimes

I don't even know what I'm doing all these for

I just want to be free 

enjoy my UNI life... ~~

It's been a long time

since I talked to some of my friends

every day and night

when the nightlight shines upon

I wish that we could meet again

can't wait for reunion

the CNY reunion ^^

and now

with the indulgence in the current busyness

not sure when can I stop the beat

I can't stop the madness

I wish the time just freeze for a moment

I really need to take a break

a pause in my life

before venturing beyond this point

...........

False Hope

A question...

is that my fault that giving a hope to something??

we know the something may not be happening

but what's wrong giving hope??

cheating oneself

hoping that the day will come

but as time goes 

the distance to achieve the hope 

remains the same

or perhaps

further

just want to fix it somehow~~

but still 

the hope remains

for no reason

is not that you know it will happen

but you move on 

cause you know the day will come

that's only occur in the dream...

so....

I don't want to give myself a false hope

I don't want to cheat myself anymore

I want to be free

free from the false dream 

and

thank for clearing my mind

swept away my doubts

wake me up from the virtual world...

UPM Life ~ Week 10

Finally

it's week 10

test 2 all done !!!

now just waiting for the result

just worry about something

we finished our floor orientation tasks..

now just waiting for the moments of Graduation

=.=

plus assignments

many things to do

Calculus

Oral

TITAS

@.@

3 days holiday..

don't know what to do

rusting at UPM ><"

haizzz

speechless..................

UPM Life ~ Week 9

Today is the last day of week 9

implies that 7 weeks to real final exam...

many things happened in this week...

Firstly

Inter College English Debate (ICED)

so glad that enter this competition

but it's kinda intimidating

especially when you look into opponents eyes...

the motion of the day 

"Public Canning should be allowed in school"

though the topic seems easy

but we as the opposition

we are trying our level best to go against this motion

but in the end

we lost T.T

well

we could try next time

It's just the 1st round

still got 2 more matches before the quarter final

BTW

thanks for my friends who came to support us

^^

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Secondly

BAKSIS

it's a community service course

compulsory for every UPM fresh juniors

the meeting just now went smoothly

but lots of constructive feedback 

and lots of problems occured

as usual

meeting is a must

but to gather all (about 70) to a meeting

that require initiative and sacrifice

hope we could excel in our upcoming mega project ...

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Thirdly

assignments and test 2

tomorrow will be my 2nd CALCULUS test

then ECO test on Tuesday

ALGEBRA on Wednesday

TITAS presentation in 2 weeks time

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Lastly

Orientation

now

we are able to see a glimpse of light

the sound of graduation drums

the freedom we always wanted

since Day 1 in UPM

maybe we are not there yet

but now at least what we can do is

to dream

to wait for the moments to come..

please God.. 

save us !!! 

Note

42 days to go.....

UPM Life ~ Week 8

Another brand new week in UPM

Life... 

as usual...

your heart will always beating to the speed of sound

><"

that's not a good sign at all

busy...

some may say it's an excuse

but it does happen to me

I have used to sleep at 4am

wake up 8am the next morning

and guess what...

I'm so glad that I've been selected as a debater

a director for a mega project

an AJK in PAP

now I'm worrying about my past

The history is repeating

I've ended up in hospital

due to the overloaded stress

and suffered from short-term memory

I don't want that to happen again !!!

but with the current never-ending orientation

it's hard for me to do things I want

is like a cage 

keeps me away from achieve my freedom

WTF session

and this passage below for someone....

"I don't like the way you treat me

Is this because I'm not your group

and I'm closer to the other group,

then you can treat me like a slave?

Why should I listen to your command?

I obeyed it as a sign of respect

in return

you still like to put a blame

raise your voice when talking to me

as though I'm the only one who set the fire

just because you looks greater than I am

or maybe I'm the easy target to you

then you have the right to shoot me

knock me down...

with all the words you got

well,

 a*****e

I don't really care

I'm just doing my part

I'm also putting my efforts

just like you, OK?

maybe you should treat me right

you don't have to worry

and please stop commanding me

you have 4 perfect limbs too

other than sport and study

maybe you can consider using them to walk your talk

errmm...

I mean you should use them... "

You Can't Stop The Beat

Glee...

an epic show ever !!

the premier of Season 3 featured a song entitled

"You Can't Stop The Beat"

by

HAIRSPRAY

~  did you see Zac Efron?? ~

‘Cause the world keeps spinnin’ round and round
And my heart’s keepin time to the speed of sound
I was lost til I heard the drums, then I found my way
‘Cause you cant stop the beat!

Like this song so much !!!

the song featured by Glee ..

started by Rachel (she again ==")

but ended up so awesome

that I listen to this song again and again... ^^

Nothing can stop us from doing whatever we want

They can try to stop us

but that's their problem

(maybe they are too free)

Just do whatever our hearts say

When we lost our way

always follow our hearts

our intuitions

Cause you cant stop the motion of the ocean, or the rain from above
They can try to stop the paradise we’re dreamin of
But you cannot stop the rhythm of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you can’t stop the beat!

UPM Life ~ Week 7

The one-week holiday just ended in a flash..

I'm back to UPM  ^^

this time

with the brand new "me"

what so new??

it's a secret

another hectic week in UPM

need to hand in the BKTA stuff

rushing here and there..

><"

then the Kenegaraan Presentation...

not sure how we presented...

one thing for sure

the lecturer is laughing from ear to ear

I guess it's a good news

then the results for Test 1

mostly beyond my expectation.. haha

but still hoping for better results.. (of course)

keeps getting better

adapted to the life here... 

UPM Life ~ 1st Holiday

Finally..

the moment I've waited for so long

is the HOLIDAY....

it's only one week..

many things to be done..

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DAY 1 - DAY 3

it is the camp

organised by the Chinese Society of KTDI

have fun and joy

what a way to start the holiday ^^

met lots of people

includes those alumni

never-seen-before people

all gathered in the camp

spent time together

embraced the moments together...

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DAY 4 ONWARD

assignments

assignments

and

assignments

Kenegaraan >> presentation after holiday

TITAS >> stop half way, don't know how to continue

BAKSIS >> planning for the mega project 

(>.<)

plus the scholarship stuff

photostat...

certify...

print...

then refill the daily stuff

toothpaste...

shampoo...

body lotion...

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the holidays will come to an end

when the class started

life get busy as usual

with more and more responsibility on shoulder

and heavier the study

plus

orientation is still going on...

a week holiday is to revitalize

regenerate

ready 

for the challenges to come.... 

UPM Life ~ Week 5 & Week 6

Finally a reason

to continue

to carry on

and to move on

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Thursday noon...

with the my heart racing

I go to the website 

and key in my IC..

then 

i saw this

hooooorayyyyyyyy!!!!!!

OMG !!!!

I'm so over the moon

and it is so great

well

the main reason why I'm in UPM..

well

 Here it is ^^

can't stop laughing

I'm laughing while I walk

I'm smiling while I listen to lecturer...

I couldn't put it in words

and I'm so happy with it!!!

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these 2 weeks

Week 5 + Week 6  = The "Test 1" weeks

all subjects:

Kenegaraan Malaysia

Tamadun Islam & Tamadun Asia

Algebra

Calculus

Oral Interaction Skills

Principles of Ecomomy

The test questions really required lots of critical thinking

most of the things are out of the books and slides

so

just cross my finger

and hope for the best ^^

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COURSE NIGHT 2011

only for Maths & Stats Chinese students

 having so much fun

meet lots of people

it held at Mines Wellness Hotel...

on 19th Oct 2011

the juniors did 2 performances

we did the signal language with the songs

one of the pic..

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Floor Orientation

when will it ends???

we are already half way there

we managed to catch a glimpse of light

it gives us hope

but are we ready to venture through?

That is the question...

UPM Life - Week 3 & 4

Another fortnight...

things getting better but tiring

works getting more fun but heavier

Another ups and downs...

full of turning points

every single step

create a new room

to be ventured

it's hectic

but you feel rich

just imagine

everyday wake up in the morning

lots of things lined up 

waiting for you

to serve them

physically and mentally

you try to do them all

in the mean time

gasping for fresher air

**6/10/11
went to national museum
for TITAS assignments

^^
still in the process of adaption and toleration

Who You Are

~Who You Are~

by Jessie J

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

it's going to be a month here in UPM

not trying to condemn

just expressing the thingy called stress

it's unusual

NEVER in this situation

it's too much

juggle between study, koko & the l**e and u****** orientation

it's freaking tiring

but what can we do... 

we have no choice but follow the orders

let them throw all the words of wrath 

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like WHOA!
Just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...

But finally

we'll still do it

we've been brainwashed

so-called
tradition

bonding 

we have no choice

we do it

with our heart and soul

do they appreciate the hard-work?

Lord knows....

what can I do?

stay positive

and pray

(the hardest prayer that I ever did)

P/S : I'm not trying to condemn, it's just express myself... ^^