Back to Holiday Mood (Finally)

I guess the title spoke the truth

I mean it is the truth

when people started their semester break long time ago

mine just started 2 days ago

though it makes my holiday ends faster

I can't do anything

but to enjoy and have fun to the max

well

the first day I reached Klang

I get myself a makeover

something that I always wanted to do...

below are the pics ^^

fiercee~~ meow XD

profile - edgy and cool (lol)

 

the first day outing

at Espress Cafe

6 ppl

talked a lot

everyone just changed

though is just a gradual change

yet everyone started to exude "maturity" aura

maybe because the different environment

everybody started to express their thoughts (at Espress cafe)

but we all know this day will come

which everyone starting to indulge and venture into their own pathways

maybe by that time

we might just lose ourselves

and built up another shape 

and fight for own world

be optimistic is always the best option

so what we can do is 

hold on to this moment

as long as we could

I agree that our Form 6 friends

are the best gang of friends ever

cause we all have been through many things

the tidal waves can't even wash us away

the only matter is the surrounding factors

and by reviewing the future years

(before graduation)

we actually have no time left

so just live our life

Asia's Next Top Model Cycle 1

Finally

the first post in 2013

the 8th day of 2013

nothing significant

just aghast by the flying time

so this period is also the doomsday exam period

luckily there are at least a day gap in between the papers

so kinda relax and laid back final for me

yet

right after the final

is the very first wave of busyness indulgence period

it's Pesta Ang Pau

a UPM event

and as part of the committee

I'm in-charged of  General Affair Department

so it's all about the logistics and the decoration etc..

looking at the bright other side

I'm still 2 papers away to claim my very first freedom of 2013

but my heart wasn't 100% affirmative for that claim

it was entangled by the paranoid affairs

and the uncertainties

Geez...

what's wrong with the taking a break

and what's with the madess

I guess I have to fight my alter ego myself

he always wanted me to set him free

but the other part of me wanted to absorb more

that's initiate the struggling and conflicts in me

and have you done with your new year resolution thingy

(Did someone even care about it?!)

well

maybe

perhaps

so how about dream

I mean we know everyone always say chase after your dream

but some don't even have the direction

to make a first step to start with

so in the end

they just ready to be carried by the wind

go wherever the wind goes

but I believe deep inside the heart

we have a dream

even it seems blurry

but sometimes we just need to climb higher to see the better view

so anyway

just keep your fingers cross

and don't lose hope 

not in this manner XD

it's one of my fav song in this season

but I just don't want to this sing line out

unless it's a bad dream

if not

we just carry on

let's put a full stop at the philosophy

we talked about something else

Asia's Next Top Model

although I just watched the 5th episode

but thanks to the spoilers and the early airing time

we already know who are the top 6~

the contestants are ~~

 the only Malaysia's representative

lovely, bubbly, and optimistic

Melissa ^^

though she didn't make very far in this competition

but her good attitude

and enthusiasm + persistence

brings her further beyond the expectation

not sure why haters hate her

maybe they are jealous of our sweetheart

well 

who cares about them

so just wish her all the best ^^

and I hope she will inspire us in a different way

she proves that with the humble and right attitude

you can just venture further more than what you expected

people will say bad things about you

or just merely hate you

but that's their problems

you can't asked them to shut their fuck up

or to apologize

just be yourself

and let the God takes care of them

one day 

maybe they are the one who will beg you

and that time

you can just walk away

and show  o0o to them ~~

either way

I will not waste my time to fight back

or to talk back 

even the misunderstanding

is like the broken pieces of mirror

you can fix it

yet you will see the motherf***er cracks

and when you look into it

you can't be yourself anymore

so why waste time on that

pursue your dream

that's more vital

because it's your life

not someone else's... 

Errr..

I guess it's too much for the very first post in 2013

all's well, end's well

just hope myself to be tougher 

and able to withstand the harsh actions 

done by uncivilized 

and super low humanity group of people

living in stone age village

population : them only ~~

(by Diva-D)

Last Day of 2012

With the curtains of the year 2012 draw closer

many things seems remained undone

perhaps the exam blues still haven't disappeared

or maybe too much pressure

knowing that part of your future have been written

so it's up to you how do you implement the talk

I do admit that the Diva-D (alter ego in me)

have taken control of me several times

and when I reflect upon my 2012

I think some of the things I've been messed up 

and not sure what the future holds for me

I was born this way 

not to please everyone in this world

like a Diva

some may love you

some just hate you

so who cares right

it's not personal

2012 is another roller coaster ride for me

cause with all the happy and unhappy things revolved around me

and it just keep on spinning

until it is heard no more

yet the resolutions I made during the first minute of 2012

may be turned into nothing at the end of it

maybe it's time to change my resolution

into a more practical way

I always believe in this quotes

"You choose how you show up in this life.

You choose how you express yourself and who you will become"

so

the Diva-D in me always speaks louder 

that's the way I can protect myself

from this wicked and corrupted reality

how about review some of the moments in 2012

well...  let the picture do all the talks~~

and overall 

I think I've developed some great model skills (ahem~~)

I mean developed another new level of confident

the courage to take chances

and the skills to survive in this mean world

and not forgetting

my 2012 top 10 hits

(including those infamous songs =P)

10. Call Me Maybe - Carly Ray Jepsen

everyone is singing this 26-year-old's song

Quizas me llames

the spanish version

damn catchy

it took a while to forget this summer hits

9. Starships - Nicki Minaj

Here comes my best female rapper in the world

with her news of threatening Mariah Carey 

but she just keep coming

she's one of the most collaborated singer

and like starships

she is meant to fly

8. When I was Your Man - Bruno Mars

new song that accompany me toward the end of 2012

yet I find the lyrics kinda melancholy

as I said

it reflects my past

7. Marry The Night - Lady Gaga

I still remember singing this song in UTAR

that was like almost a year ago

the climax that she she made

and the broken down part at the end of the song

that's phenomenal

6. It's Time - Imagine Dragon

OK, congratulations to Glee Cast

especially Blaine

introducing this song into my world

and with the weird Red Solo Cup Dance

in front of the students and Kurt

that's made a memorable moments

5. Here's To Us - Halestorm

This is one of the infamous song here in Malaysia

I bet no one have heard this song

unless you are an avid fan of Glee

the song has some vulgar contents

which is not really family friendly

but it sings about us

who have come so far

yet knowing long journey to carry on

the perseverance in the heart 

is the key to move on

4. 50 Ways to Say Goodbye - Train

It's a great song

I know saying goodbye is hard

but this song make it hilarious to say goodbye

especially the significant one

saying goodbye is like tearing heart apart

yet it's a part of our life

need to shake them off

3. Let's Have A Kiki - Scissors Sister

so what kind of song is this

in my top 10 list of 2012

it's a great song

like Good Time

but it's a party song

it should be celebrated in this manner

dance and laugh and sing

part of my plan for New Year Party ^^

2. Aiming For You - Sophie Sumner

this is Sophie

who won America's Next Top Model Cycle 18

she's demure, sweet and pink

she is a super duper top model

one of the most deserved to walk away the title

and the song has some Tyra-ish vocabs

so make sure you know tune in ANTM

so you know what's the song about

1. Blow Me (One Last Kiss) - P!nk

who has the rocker attitude

yet always sings about self embrace

and inspire others

yup!! It's P!nk

her incredible vocal

and always be my top list whenever I open my playlist

Throughout this year

I became more self-aware

yes I admit became a little more self-centered

but the truth is

I know what to do 

I want the world changed according to me

not the other around

so hopefully 2013 brings more surprise to me

and my fabulous alter ego as well ^^

~happy new year ~

Después de Doomsday

It seems like we have 23/12/2012

which means there are no doomsday 

which also means we have final exam to carry on

which means everything still go on

and of course which means we are still alive

and it supposed to be joyous right?

perhaps the stress and some sleepless night in the camp

cause my whole concentration to lose up a bit

anyway

I still have the mood for blogging

after flipping through some lecture notes

it's kinda heavy

but knowing that I have tougher subjects coming up

so I assume everything should be easy to handle

just remember to handle with care

and not failing to the edge

many things struck my mind like tidal waves

unstoppable rain that pour upon me

perhaps it's Christmas's eve

or maybe knowing that we will end this year with final exam

so it doesn't appear to be festive or happy

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So how's the playlist for this week

it should start with an emotional song by

Bruno Mars

When I Was Your Man

in my opinion it's a sequel after It Will Rain

worth listening

it should bring about some past moments

and let bygones be bygones

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then here come's the Cannonball

by Little Mix

the Winner of The X Factor UK Series 8

It's not hart to fall

when you float like a cannonball

it's their winning song

and it's so inspiring and motivating

it's not a very popular song over here in Malaysia

who watch The X Factor UK anyway??

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Then Ellie Goulding

with Anything Could Happen

it opens up some possibilities

while we are venturing into this world

anything could happen right

praise her vocal

the songs is an alternative kind of music

catchy and up-tempo

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so I hope you guys enjoy these songs

Merry Christmas

and a Happy New Year~~    

Declaration Like A Boss

Everything has put up a brand new wallpaper

welcoming some bold rangers

and some ingenious community as well

together living in a world

consuming the same resources

yet separated by a thick fog of ideology

which successfully dumbfounded certain people

with a little chance of survival rate

in this epic reality

It's really a real reality

partial of the ocean of memory has been evaporated 

what is left is the several scars

the scars which inflicted through several weapons

perhaps the arrow of the ignorance

or the burning spear of the foolish

which has pierced through the innocent heart

Hoping for white doves to set off

yet the pains and tears that struggled through is 

screaming

screeching 

in altar of darkness of the heart

waiting for the shining light

to light up the reality

at the same time intensifying the sorrow and hatred

when the night gets darker

and the pain gets worse

who do I turn to

if given the low ripeness of the thoughts

can interfering the decision I made

it heralds the wipeout of the entire entity of mine

and the demolition of the gravitas of mine

Shine bright like a diamond~

why not turn the table

and question yourself with the exact preposterous interrogation

not trying to incriminate anyone

and not trying to flaunt or swank

just wanted yourself to mirror own reflection

nothing much

The reality~

you can express yourself in any forms

include brutal beast of insanity

or the fairy of injustice

or the low visibility bug in the forest

but it won't changed me

myself and I

cause I withhold some noxious modes of life

I prefer my own life philosophy

and that's what integrate who I am

Like A Boss ^^