Towards The End

It's hard to believe that

we gonna end our 2013 in about 12 days

emotional influx like hell

too many things happened this year

too much expectation at the beginning

too little satisfaction

towards the end

meanwhile

I'm currently listening to the songs such as

Lady Gaga

Gypsy

Ellie Goulding

How Long Will I Love You

Beyoncé

XO

Frozen (Kristen Bell and Idina Menzel)

For the First Time in Forever

Michelle Chamuel

Go Down Singing

Hunter Hayes ft Jason Mraz

Everybody's Got Somebody but Me

Britney Spears

Perfume

Lorde

Team

towards the end

hopefully a miracles happens before 2013 ends

Sometimes

Sometimes

It's hard to determine what does the heart ever want

and it always against your will

and you realize

your stand was not as firm as before

sometimes

when you are about to attain something

suddenly

you back off

and try to shut everything down

sometimes

just when you know the route is impossible to go through

yet 

you just walk straight 

without any hesitation

I guess that's human nature

until we started to lose something

then only we learn to appreciate

to sigh

to regret

ANTM Cycle 20 - The "Epic" Cycle

My fav show of all time

America's Next Top Model

had been concluded a few weeks ago

this cycle 20

with the theme 

boys and girls

it's more or less like some other modelling competition

I watched this show with so much expectations

and I'm kinda disappointed due to some reason

let the pictures do the talking then

starting with the promo picture

Tyra looks so damn hot

and the girls are so ready to battle the guys

let's go for the very first challenge

it's regarding a part of the prize

Guess' runway

but there's always a twist

it's a vertical runway

(OMG~~~)

but surprisingly

most of them are doing so well

I guess the runway it's not as scary 

then the photo shoot with so many different themes

the different kind of wedding

in the picture above is Jeremy and Jourdan

theme: Nude Wedding

then here comes the picture with 

Victoria's Secret Angel

Alessandra Ambrosio

 with Mike and Kanani

in 50 Shades of Grey -inspired photo shoot 

then the make-over

that as always

painful and joyful to watch at the same time

(so confusing)

and this cycle

we have the thing so-called

MANSCAPE...

which means hair removal (on the legs)

why don't Tyra just shaved them off ??

then another ridiculous theme

gender reversal

the "boys"

Nina^^, Alex, Jiana, Renee and Kanani

and the "girls" 

from right 

Cory, Marvin, Johnny Wujek and Chris H.

the trailer park

Marvin and Jiana

Chris H. and Jourdan 

here are some of the pictures of this cycle~~~

Cory- the nail art shot

Renee - the splashing paint art 

Nina - the fallen 

Chlea - the Guess campaign shot

Don - posing with animal

Alex - the "flawsome" shot

Phil - the hanging bat

Jourdan - final 2 shot with Tyra

and the winner is

Jourdan Miller

(^^) 

from the photos

(in my opinion)

this cycle really showed their insufficient budget

most of the costume are low-budget

and the theme was not really awesome

besides

the score system really sucks

cause the social media doesn't really know the contestants well

thus creating unsatisfied results along the series

hopefully

next cycle will be better

and before new cycle is on air

I guess I need to find something else to watch XD

More Than Anything

the moment when we hold each other's hand

the warm hugs

the passionate kiss

had became a surging force

to keep us moving on

love exists in this world

regardless its various forms

any two matters can fall in love

and it doesn't matter how people judge us

the tears that you shed

the laughter that we shared

the whisper that I made

it's all what it counts

and it will remains as our fond memories

though the misunderstandings

the jealousies

the quarrels

that whoever started seem pointless

but it shows the depth of love 

and we care for each other

making the first move is ain't easy

to commit is like to keep a flower

constant watering and sufficient sunlight

is very much needed

to sprout a flower 

since the world is ours

there should be no past to haunt upon us

the past is the past

we can just let go

and start our future

to be with you

it's worth

more than anything 

Do What U Want Unconditionally~

There exists 2 songs recently

A Katy or a Gaga

Lady Gaga ft R.Kelly

Do What U Want~

2 great voices

composing a fresh resonance

when comes to love 

sometimes the paces taken seems too fast

U can't have my heart and u won't use my mind but

do what u want with my body 

do what u want with my body

U can't stop my voice cuz u don't own my life but

do what you want my body, do what u want with my body

when two hearts are meant for each other

no time should be go wasted 

instead embrace every in-love moments

on the other side of the ring

we have Katy Perry

Unconditionally~~

Written while love's in the air

and the message in the song is common yet very important

There's no condition when 2 person are in love

it's all about accepting each other

learn to grow with each other

Unconditional, unconditionally

I will love you unconditionally

there is no fear now

Let go and just be free

I will love you unconditionally

acceptance is the key to be

To be truly free

Will you do the same for me?

it's a bless to be loved and to love

and it takes the greatest courage to set your heart for someone

so regardless what happen in the future

just remind ourselves that we still have someone waiting for us

It's Just Sad

It's a heart-breaking truth

it's a unwritten rule

it's just a norm

that

people will always take advantage of others

if he/she possesses something more

or something that benefits them

then they just show they sympathetic eyes

your heart just melt 

yet deep inside your heart

there exists

the reluctance which is still strongly against the melting heart

and the war keep going on

and then you just forget them

cause now you've been trapped by the "gimme-gimme-gimme" curse

and without your consciousness

you have been taken advantage

there's also exists the "being-to-kind" attitude

and fear of rejecting people

so the cycle goes on and on

and the people just keep on consuming your "benefits"

eventually

there leads to 2 possibilities

one

they will be super grateful

then they will return in favour

in several means

one of the most common is to treat you

will delicacies that cost you not much

but it only happen once in a blue moon

two

they will say thanks

it will make your day

but then you feel like it's a commensalism symbiosis

where you benefit nothing 

and that's not a great feeling to contain with

if Diva-D was controlling me

he/she will bitch about them

cause we suffer no fools

take no prisoners

and please

talk to my hand

I know your demand 

but this is me the Queen Control

and if you wanna a piece of me

do something that is equivalent 

I 'm not the greatest giver

cause it makes a like a biggest loser

and I'm not your driver

cause you bitch ain't a bitch

cause I'm a top bitch 

and always I am

My Randomness (with BiNTM & AusNTM)

Here's a thing

I started this semester with lots of excitement

not because I have super "not-so-packed" timetable

but everything just scream brand new to me

most of the time

I write these posts without an intention (mostly)

thus

you'll see the direction of the post 

starting from A

stopping at B

and surging high at Z

closing with AZB

people often assume I'm a high-energy battery

which will only deactivate while I'm asleep

I can't deny that actually

in fact

though sleeping is a major activity of mine

I spend at most 8 hours lying on comfy bed

(unless I'm super duper hyper tired)

dreaming of something ................

well

after that

if I slept too much

I started to have headache

and it will bring me back to my awakening

and my mind is starting to welcome a brand new day

"Buenos días!!!"

another talent of mine is

I can relate almost anything with songs that I've heard /known

"that's a remarkable talent I said"

and that's the best compliment I ever received

if I ever enter XX's Got Talent 

with the judges told me so

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BTW

congrats to Lauren Lambert 

who won Britain & Ireland's Next Top Model

I'm rooting for her all the way

and Melissa Juratowich 

who won Australia's Next Top Model

she's just 16

and not really my top fav tho XD

thanks for bearing for my randomness

I'll be back with more XDD