July Entry

If I were asked to summarise my life, I would say "Pretty complicated". 

That's two words pretty much sum up my 2016 so far. There are two ways to look it aka the Bright side and the Dark side (aka cliche AF).

The bright side, I'm 40% done with my master research. If there's no any problem in the next part, I should probably done it by end of this year (hopefully and rightfully). What a ride! 

To sustain my life, I choose to teach instead of direct selling or sell insurance. Teaching is fun. It is fruitful especially when your beloved students get good results (cliche AF again). The satisfaction level is unbeatable. Apart from that, you get a better recognition in a way, and of course, increase your god-damn reputation. 

The thing is, I tend to shift my attention more towards to tuition instead of my master. Some of my friends, as usual, likes to mock me. Well, (brush of the dust from my shoulder), I don't really give a Fish about what they think. 

But a word of encouragement might help. So it's super discouraging when people are comparing the lush life they have or the misery they ended with. Usually, my research thing will not be brought up as a topic, in which you can talk for hours, thus it creates the hollow space among the high and rise hot topics. 

(Usually I'll smile it away and try to cut in if possible). 

That's the dark side though. Lack of encouragement is one thing, it gets you really work your ass off just so that you can have at least something to proud of. That's a serious issue of dignity though.

I mean, seriously, I don't think many people are proud to have friends pursuing postgraduate programmes, unless you are in the programme. What I've observed is these people treat the "postgrad nerd" as a measure. 

For instance, XXX earns this much. When she compared to YYY who is doing master, she feels great by saying "You dunno one la, you still in uni, you won't understand bla bla bla....". I'm not sure how she feels later on, but I bet there's a sigh of relief liberated from her thoughts.

Well, I just wanna break free from this mess. I hate the nonsense and negativity in my life. As long as I live, I'm gonna take them down (somehow). And see who's laughing later. 

Kill em Kill em !!