Something bothering me...

It's a brand new month

the new year resolution should be resolved by half

yet 

the passion is still remained glowing

the path is still remained vaguely

the fear is still remained tormenting

The passion

I always wanted the best of both world

providing the comfortable life for my family

and

achieving my ultimate dream

however there always exist a thin fine line

which I called the ignorance factor

what if I were to ignore the first scenario

or

what if I were to abandon my sky-high dream 

I know it's time consuming to achieve the balance 

but that's what worth a food for thought

The path

choices 

options

opportunities

these are the elements that always pop out

sometimes you just make your move

cause you know everything is in your hand

and sometimes you have no idea what the hell just happen

everything seems fall apart once you enter a wrong path

and you start to realize you have made a wrong decision

and there comes the opportunities

they do not come often

sometimes

you might just miss them

and they never come back

so seize the light if you could

The fear

it is normal to have a fear(s) of something

but it's terrifying if you know you had chosen incorrectly

and you became further and further from your dream

I am afraid to spend the rest of my life 

living in the things that I hate

cause one day I might just bring along the regrets into the ground

and from the fear rise the courage to carry on

to be bold

and to be strong