The Jam

With just a blink of my eyes

I have ended my sixth day of my internship

though the road is still long and winding

but guess what

I'm gonna rock this 2 months period

Move Like a Soldier

Kristina Maria

and no time wasted

cause I'm gonna be like a sponge

absorb these experiences

inspire my next part of my life

to be honest

the life here's ain't easy 

imagine stuck in traffic jam at least 2 hours per day

oh great, what a waste!!!

of course with the workload I have

nothing much to complain

I've learned so much in just six days

imagine what's coming along the way for next 2 months

it's damn tiring in the jam

so it's another gate to heaven when I went to Shower

Becky G

the downpour of shower

kinda retaliates the hard work of the day

feel like Top of the World

Shonen Knife

speaking of jam

I'm jamming with all the songs above

maybe sounded corny

but it ain't another Crazy Stupid Love song

My Crazy Girlfriend

just songs for me to groove with while working

and rightfully let me go through these internship days

New Pair of Order

Tomorrow marks the first day of my internship

nothing much to fear of

except the fear of getting lost somewhere

the fear of forgetting some important stuffs

the fear of something here and there

and sum up

the fear that created due to over thinking

taking a new leap of faith

into a brand new environment

hopefully my ability to adapt could keep up the puzzles of routes

and rightfully I could make my way to achieve my goals

of course putting internship

I have a pile of Final Year Project to-do-list

after having a discussion with my ultimate all-I-ever-wanted supervisor

right now gotta bulk up and strive to do the thing

it's also a brand new thing for me

too strange yet that's what I've chosen

guess this is my highest call yet so far

either to conquer the best of both worlds

or watch me stab to death by a pair of knives

thus no more complain

let the action do the talking

while the other part of me 

just sit back

relax

eating the low fat popcorn

while watch the wonder happens right in front of me

Running Out of Breath

Engulfing in the most stressful month

yet beneath my thought

I'm like 

"So far so good!"

just hoping that everything just go according to me

and that's it

I'm set

trying hard to reach out

for the higher ground

the test of limit itself is freaking insane

almost barely able to breath

I might just sink to the deepest

and never get out of it

turning the table is another option 

but let's put the thinking cap on

what the hell am I doing

over-thinking it might just deteriorate oneself

but 

ignoring it might just discourage the boldness 

Kelly Clarkson - Catch My Breath

before running out of breath

the only way is to keep on

move on

before the dawn of life

and regret for raising the white flag 

in the midst of the race

OneRepublic - Love Runs Out

 

Something bothering me...

It's a brand new month

the new year resolution should be resolved by half

yet 

the passion is still remained glowing

the path is still remained vaguely

the fear is still remained tormenting

The passion

I always wanted the best of both world

providing the comfortable life for my family

and

achieving my ultimate dream

however there always exist a thin fine line

which I called the ignorance factor

what if I were to ignore the first scenario

or

what if I were to abandon my sky-high dream 

I know it's time consuming to achieve the balance 

but that's what worth a food for thought

The path

choices 

options

opportunities

these are the elements that always pop out

sometimes you just make your move

cause you know everything is in your hand

and sometimes you have no idea what the hell just happen

everything seems fall apart once you enter a wrong path

and you start to realize you have made a wrong decision

and there comes the opportunities

they do not come often

sometimes

you might just miss them

and they never come back

so seize the light if you could

The fear

it is normal to have a fear(s) of something

but it's terrifying if you know you had chosen incorrectly

and you became further and further from your dream

I am afraid to spend the rest of my life 

living in the things that I hate

cause one day I might just bring along the regrets into the ground

and from the fear rise the courage to carry on

to be bold

and to be strong