My Randomness (with BiNTM & AusNTM)

Here's a thing

I started this semester with lots of excitement

not because I have super "not-so-packed" timetable

but everything just scream brand new to me

most of the time

I write these posts without an intention (mostly)

thus

you'll see the direction of the post 

starting from A

stopping at B

and surging high at Z

closing with AZB

people often assume I'm a high-energy battery

which will only deactivate while I'm asleep

I can't deny that actually

in fact

though sleeping is a major activity of mine

I spend at most 8 hours lying on comfy bed

(unless I'm super duper hyper tired)

dreaming of something ................

well

after that

if I slept too much

I started to have headache

and it will bring me back to my awakening

and my mind is starting to welcome a brand new day

"Buenos días!!!"

another talent of mine is

I can relate almost anything with songs that I've heard /known

"that's a remarkable talent I said"

and that's the best compliment I ever received

if I ever enter XX's Got Talent 

with the judges told me so

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BTW

congrats to Lauren Lambert 

who won Britain & Ireland's Next Top Model

I'm rooting for her all the way

and Melissa Juratowich 

who won Australia's Next Top Model

she's just 16

and not really my top fav tho XD

thanks for bearing for my randomness

I'll be back with more XDD

Me as a Workaholic

You never know that 

how your pasts

can influence your present moment 

so greatly

until it happened randomly

and you just kinda freaked out

clueless about what to do

for the next few moments

your mind is stuck with the scenario

the past come upon like a tidal wave

strike without a sign

and leave without a trace

people always say

let bygones be bygones

but the "bygones"

is defined as things that happened in the past

and at the same time

you've let go it completely

people around me say that I'm a workaholic

in fact

I admit to myself that I am

even my doctor advice me not to overwork my brain

but through tonnes of works

I find myself really enjoy those moments of working

and the joy is irreplaceable

though this kind of attitude has been a viral factor 

of maintaining a relationship

yet after all this while

I like myself when I'm at work

I'm at my fullest when I'm indulging in madness

I couldn't express the joys when I'm super busy

though this busyness will leads me no-where

but at the end of the day

I rather work than feeling alone

I rather work than thinking of the past

that's me

a brand new self-defined "me"

I'm accepting for who I am

I'm embracing for who I want to be

 yup

that's what I wanna be

@.@

Complete Realization

I recalled there was a prince

he saw people suffered in pain

he met people with different personalities

lastly

he sat down under a tree

and then he realized something

something that became a religion nowadays

then people started to worship him

and became one of the oldest belief/religion around the globe

In my case

there was a man

before I knew him so closely

he's some sort of bubbly

and also loud

despite that his family background is not-so-good state

but he stood strong and firm

people thinks that he's very independent and mature

and then

just a few days as temporary companion

he's changed

everything had changed (kinda drastically)

well everything that stuck in head about his qualities

just "poof" disappeared

Then I started to realize a fact

never judge a book by its cover

but living in a world with different people

different needs

different directions

is kinda sort out the goods and the bads

(even it took sometime to differentiate good restaurant and bad one)

what you need to do is to try 

when the ship sails then everything will be fine

if suddenly sink into the deep blue ocean, then...

anyway

I just came to this complete realization

it is true that we hardly find someone who has the same frequency like us

who behaves almost like us

most imperatively

who can share your stories and understand each other

I guess before we embark our journey to find the "click" one

we just gotta survive alone like a lone ranger