Soon, we are facing the end of August. In a blink of an eye, we are heading towards end of 2016. Honestly, I have achieved nothing great or something to proud of in the past 8 months. That's not a good sign though. Though all my life craving for a better life, the balance always seems off. Not to complain, but everything seems to hit the roadblocks and obstacles. That's super discouraging.
Sigh, what am I doing so far? Kicking 2016 with research in the day, tutoring at the night seems alright. We all know if everything went too smoothly, something bound to happen. The worst thing is you have no f***ing idea it happens or ongoing. By the time you start realising the truth, you have wasted so much time on doing unnecessary stuff.
Motivation and self-discipline are two co-dependent things you need for survival, especially you've chosen your path in research. Unfortunately, they do not come by often when I start to dedicate more time for tuition. Plus, addiction to social media really put me in a bad position. I have been procrastinating since I don't know when. That's really awful! It makes you a lazier and loss of passion. It does make me feel less passionate as compared to where I started.
And again, just like any relationship, you need to reminisce the reason why you have started all these. You are doing these for a cause and not just for fun. You have some people who are hoping you to succeed and backing you up. Thus no more turning back, cause you are now on the way for a better place.
Toying with these thoughts in my mind seems to be so complex. But I pledged to myself to reach to the peak. I'm not young anymore and I can't to take the world by storm. Determination and strong-will are the keys. Hopefully everything turns out alright.
