It had been a roller coaster ride for me since the beginning of 2016. Many things just happened while some of them left undone or unnoticed. Thus, first quarter of this highly anticipated year had just flown away. I will never take them back, even if I want it to. However, it left traces along the way. Traces that works like a mirror, reflecting everything upon staring at them.
Frankly, I'm not OK. There's my inner battle cry. To conquer yourself, you need to know everything inside out. Till now, the route that I've embarked for the past six months had been miserably harsh.
The way I see it,
it might just out to be another endurance test, just to see how thirsty and how hungry you want all these things to work out.
Or it might be a sign since the beginning of time, it is never meant to be incorporated into my life.
So which side do I delve into? Should I go? Should I stay? That's my daily inner monologue. I'm combating with my heart and passion. If everything left undone, I'll be a quitter. I couldn't help myself but I have no idea what should I do at this point. The thoughts haunt me every single day, never failed to interrupt my average life.
And of course, the haters. The one that will be there to see you fail and fall hard. Surrounded by them, it makes your life super difficult. Dealing with the ongoing nonsense and discouragement, I'm not sure how my life will work out though. The route seems annoyingly darker with their words. Though I never let them get to me, but once I let my guard down, the surging waves of emotions hit me like nobody business. Damn life.
Still at the end of the day, I'm glad that my potato is there for me. Potato is the best thing that exist in the world. It make my life better and I'm proud to be around with it. Unlike those haters, this starchy vegetable knows how to find a way to comfort me. Guess that's what I like the most about my life so far.
Now back to the topic. Hmmm... I guess just go on with I my guts. No point sighing and crying out loud for haters.
