Finally
the first post in 2013
the 8th day of 2013
nothing significant
just aghast by the flying time
so this period is also the doomsday exam period
luckily there are at least a day gap in between the papers
so kinda relax and laid back final for me
yet
right after the final
is the very first wave of busyness indulgence period
it's Pesta Ang Pau
a UPM event
and as part of the committee
I'm in-charged of General Affair Department
so it's all about the logistics and the decoration etc..
looking at the bright other side
I'm still 2 papers away to claim my very first freedom of 2013
but my heart wasn't 100% affirmative for that claim
it was entangled by the paranoid affairs
and the uncertainties
Geez...
what's wrong with the taking a break
and what's with the madess
I guess I have to fight my alter ego myself
he always wanted me to set him free
but the other part of me wanted to absorb more
that's initiate the struggling and conflicts in me
and have you done with your new year resolution thingy
(Did someone even care about it?!)
well
maybe
perhaps
so how about dream
I mean we know everyone always say chase after your dream
but some don't even have the direction
to make a first step to start with
so in the end
they just ready to be carried by the wind
go wherever the wind goes
but I believe deep inside the heart
we have a dream
even it seems blurry
but sometimes we just need to climb higher to see the better view
so anyway
just keep your fingers cross
and don't lose hope
not in this manner XD
it's one of my fav song in this season
but I just don't want to this sing line out
unless it's a bad dream
if not
we just carry on
let's put a full stop at the philosophy
we talked about something else
Asia's Next Top Model
although I just watched the 5th episode
but thanks to the spoilers and the early airing time
we already know who are the top 6~
the contestants are ~~
the only Malaysia's representative
lovely, bubbly, and optimistic
Melissa ^^
though she didn't make very far in this competition
but her good attitude
and enthusiasm + persistence
brings her further beyond the expectation
not sure why haters hate her
maybe they are jealous of our sweetheart
well
who cares about them
so just wish her all the best ^^
and I hope she will inspire us in a different way
she proves that with the humble and right attitude
you can just venture further more than what you expected
people will say bad things about you
or just merely hate you
but that's their problems
you can't asked them to shut their fuck up
or to apologize
just be yourself
and let the God takes care of them
one day
maybe they are the one who will beg you
and that time
you can just walk away
and show o0o to them ~~
either way
I will not waste my time to fight back
or to talk back
even the misunderstanding
is like the broken pieces of mirror
you can fix it
yet you will see the motherf***er cracks
and when you look into it
you can't be yourself anymore
so why waste time on that
pursue your dream
that's more vital
because it's your life
not someone else's...
Errr..
I guess it's too much for the very first post in 2013
all's well, end's well
just hope myself to be tougher
and able to withstand the harsh actions
done by uncivilized
and super low humanity group of people
living in stone age village
population : them only ~~
(by Diva-D)
