False Hope

A question...

is that my fault that giving a hope to something??

we know the something may not be happening

but what's wrong giving hope??

cheating oneself

hoping that the day will come

but as time goes 

the distance to achieve the hope 

remains the same

or perhaps

further

just want to fix it somehow~~

but still 

the hope remains

for no reason

is not that you know it will happen

but you move on 

cause you know the day will come

that's only occur in the dream...

so....

I don't want to give myself a false hope

I don't want to cheat myself anymore

I want to be free

free from the false dream 

and

thank for clearing my mind

swept away my doubts

wake me up from the virtual world...

UPM Life ~ Week 10

Finally

it's week 10

test 2 all done !!!

now just waiting for the result

just worry about something

we finished our floor orientation tasks..

now just waiting for the moments of Graduation

=.=

plus assignments

many things to do

Calculus

Oral

TITAS

@.@

3 days holiday..

don't know what to do

rusting at UPM ><"

haizzz

speechless..................

UPM Life ~ Week 9

Today is the last day of week 9

implies that 7 weeks to real final exam...

many things happened in this week...

Firstly

Inter College English Debate (ICED)

so glad that enter this competition

but it's kinda intimidating

especially when you look into opponents eyes...

the motion of the day 

"Public Canning should be allowed in school"

though the topic seems easy

but we as the opposition

we are trying our level best to go against this motion

but in the end

we lost T.T

well

we could try next time

It's just the 1st round

still got 2 more matches before the quarter final

BTW

thanks for my friends who came to support us

^^

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Secondly

BAKSIS

it's a community service course

compulsory for every UPM fresh juniors

the meeting just now went smoothly

but lots of constructive feedback 

and lots of problems occured

as usual

meeting is a must

but to gather all (about 70) to a meeting

that require initiative and sacrifice

hope we could excel in our upcoming mega project ...

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Thirdly

assignments and test 2

tomorrow will be my 2nd CALCULUS test

then ECO test on Tuesday

ALGEBRA on Wednesday

TITAS presentation in 2 weeks time

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Lastly

Orientation

now

we are able to see a glimpse of light

the sound of graduation drums

the freedom we always wanted

since Day 1 in UPM

maybe we are not there yet

but now at least what we can do is

to dream

to wait for the moments to come..

please God.. 

save us !!! 

Note

42 days to go.....

UPM Life ~ Week 8

Another brand new week in UPM

Life... 

as usual...

your heart will always beating to the speed of sound

><"

that's not a good sign at all

busy...

some may say it's an excuse

but it does happen to me

I have used to sleep at 4am

wake up 8am the next morning

and guess what...

I'm so glad that I've been selected as a debater

a director for a mega project

an AJK in PAP

now I'm worrying about my past

The history is repeating

I've ended up in hospital

due to the overloaded stress

and suffered from short-term memory

I don't want that to happen again !!!

but with the current never-ending orientation

it's hard for me to do things I want

is like a cage 

keeps me away from achieve my freedom

WTF session

and this passage below for someone....

"I don't like the way you treat me

Is this because I'm not your group

and I'm closer to the other group,

then you can treat me like a slave?

Why should I listen to your command?

I obeyed it as a sign of respect

in return

you still like to put a blame

raise your voice when talking to me

as though I'm the only one who set the fire

just because you looks greater than I am

or maybe I'm the easy target to you

then you have the right to shoot me

knock me down...

with all the words you got

well,

 a*****e

I don't really care

I'm just doing my part

I'm also putting my efforts

just like you, OK?

maybe you should treat me right

you don't have to worry

and please stop commanding me

you have 4 perfect limbs too

other than sport and study

maybe you can consider using them to walk your talk

errmm...

I mean you should use them... "

You Can't Stop The Beat

Glee...

an epic show ever !!

the premier of Season 3 featured a song entitled

"You Can't Stop The Beat"

by

HAIRSPRAY

~  did you see Zac Efron?? ~

‘Cause the world keeps spinnin’ round and round
And my heart’s keepin time to the speed of sound
I was lost til I heard the drums, then I found my way
‘Cause you cant stop the beat!

Like this song so much !!!

the song featured by Glee ..

started by Rachel (she again ==")

but ended up so awesome

that I listen to this song again and again... ^^

Nothing can stop us from doing whatever we want

They can try to stop us

but that's their problem

(maybe they are too free)

Just do whatever our hearts say

When we lost our way

always follow our hearts

our intuitions

Cause you cant stop the motion of the ocean, or the rain from above
They can try to stop the paradise we’re dreamin of
But you cannot stop the rhythm of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you can’t stop the beat!

UPM Life ~ Week 7

The one-week holiday just ended in a flash..

I'm back to UPM  ^^

this time

with the brand new "me"

what so new??

it's a secret

another hectic week in UPM

need to hand in the BKTA stuff

rushing here and there..

><"

then the Kenegaraan Presentation...

not sure how we presented...

one thing for sure

the lecturer is laughing from ear to ear

I guess it's a good news

then the results for Test 1

mostly beyond my expectation.. haha

but still hoping for better results.. (of course)

keeps getting better

adapted to the life here...